Thursday, September 21, 2017

What's In My Bag?

I've been seeing these posts around and I always liked the idea, but was a little nervous to try it out myself. What will people think?!?!?!?!?! Well, I guess we will find out!

  • Two Ink Pens, One blue, one black. I'm a writer, can't have too many.
  • My phone, which is currently not working, but will be functional again next month. 
  • My marriage certificate. Still newlyweds sorta and have to pull that thing out to prove I'm married all the time, but it is starting to fall apart. We will have to go buy a new one when we are ready to file it.
  • Tons of business cards, and I use them too.
  • My keys
  • Juicy Couture wallet my mom and sister got for me as a college graduation gift.
  • Glasses cleaner with a clothe
  • Two sanitary napkins. Lol, left over from my LEEP procedure ( for those not in the know: The LEEP procedure is what they do when they find cervical cancer and need to cut or burn it out. I've had it done twice now. It's not fun and the healing process feels like it goes on forever.)
  • Burts Bees Wild Cherry lip balm. It's all granulated now. I need a new one. Haha
  • Empty bottle of Hugo Naturals Hand Sanitizer. I plan on refilling it with Witch Hazel when I "get the money"
  • Stray tampons
  • My rescue inhaler
  • Point and shoot camera that I rarely use because my phone has some quality picture taking abilities on it.
  • Folding hair brush for emergencies
  • Bag of Thumb drives (For taking to the library when I want to print stuff)
  • Yellow Cloth napkin so I don't have to use paper napkins on the go.
  • Two vintage hankies so I don't have to use paper tissues on the go.

All of this is packed in a small crossbody bag from Thirty-One. Don't color me impressed yet, though. It's from a consignment shop and it's YEARS old, ratty and falling apart. But, I have to keep it for now. In this city people try to steal purses all the time. Crossbody bags are safer here. I've found a few replacement ideas at local shops, I'm just not totally sold on buying a new purse yet.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

3 Things My 'Best Self' Would Do, But I'm Not

Doesn't this sound like a fun topic? I've been all kinds of opening up lately. But, honesty is the best policy, right?

  1. Take a hot shower everyday. Well, the gas isn't on and this house doesn't afford much privacy. I used to be a stickler for clean, but somehow I let that go. I'm not nasty. (Selfie Sniff) I just don't shower every single day anymore.
  2. Read all the time. I've been a bookworm all my life, but somehow I never find time for it anymore. I've been working on this one the past couple of days, but as a rule I don't read enough to keep my mind exercised.
  3. Fix my hair. Growing up my mom always fixed my hair. I have VERY thick hair and I never did learn to fix it beyond a ponytail and a bun. I need to go on Pinterest and check it out.

What do you need to do, that you aren't doing now?

Saturday, September 16, 2017

3 Things I Did Today To Obtain My Dreams

I never thought I'd get around to writing this post because I didn't think I could ever sit down and do 3 whole things to obtain my goals. But, today I've been on FIRE, so I think this an appropriate time to write this post.


  1. Today I posted a Headshot on my blog. Wow! Serious bloggers do this and my micro profile picture was not cutting it. So, I found this picture of me wearing my old glasses and added it. It may be a Selfie, but I like it. CHECK IT OUT! ------->
  2. My state doesn't allow Amazon Associates... I don't know why, it used to, but now it doesn't and I've felt really hobbled by my inability to use Amazon Associates like the greats do. Then I found out Target has a similar program! I signed up today, although I haven't found out if I'm accepted or not. I hope to hear a positive response.
  3. I wrote this post! I have been on a role for the past week and I'm hoping to keep it up as that helps keep my meager page views up. 

Friday, September 15, 2017

5 Insecurities I Have

I'm pretty sure that I don't give off the vibe that I have it all together and if you got that idea from reading my blog... ahem... I'm sorry, I did not mean to give off that impression. But, for the sake of digging into my life and laying it bare. I'm going to share 5 insecurities I have. Maybe you have some of them too.



  1. I'm really insecure about money right now. I used to have an apartment and had all my bills squared away. I even had some left over to buy stuff for me. That isn't the case anymore. Now I live with my Mother-In-Law who is 72 and not in good health. Daily we worry that she will pass away leaving three people to live on my income. And that's with extra bills that I never signed up for before, but my family would be sort of lost without. So, yeah, money has been tight as it is.
  2. I'm insecure about my Love. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband with all my heart and he says he loves me. And, I REALLY know he isn't going to up and leave me at a moments notice. But, I'll have to admit that my mind keeps popping in with thoughts that he could do waaaay better than me.
  3. I'm insecure about my mind sometimes. Not always, but I don't give myself credit for what I do know. I'm pretty sure that if I set my mind to doing things that I'm able to do the stuff. But, sometimes I just think there is nothing in my head. 
  4. I'm insecure about my body before you think "Well who isn't" let me say that I have my entire life being degraded for having an hourglass figure and called fat over and over until I just believed it. I have since looked back on pictures from my youth and it is laughable that someone would call their 16 year old 115 lbs. child FAT! But, over the years I let my body go and now I'm chronically ill so working out can be a challenge. So, of course, my head goes back to when I was young and I feel insecure about my body all over again.
  5. I'm insecure about my illnesses, which may sounds weird, but let me explain. See I have Sarcoidosis, Fibromyalgia, Gout, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Bipolar, PTSD, and I've had a heart attack. The thing is these are all invisible illnesses. So, people look at me and think I'm overweight and lazy. They don't see the pain going on inside my body.

Thursday, September 14, 2017

My Personal Style

I originally wanted this post to be a fun dress up post and pictures of me in different outfits. How fun would that be? In the end I decided to tell you about it. And you can check out my https://www.pinterest.com/dismalgrin/boards/ for pictures of outfits I like. I even have a Polyvore board filled with my own creations.


Most of my clothes come from thrift stores. Goodwill mostly. I lean towards hippie style. But, I do own some of what Hubby calls "Soccer mom clothes". I collect peasant tops and leggings. Long skirts and maxi dresses... even though I'm short and the clothes make me look shorter.

I wear lots of sandals, but I own a few pairs of boots for fall and winter.

I own two pairs of jeans I have found that's all I need.

Coming up I'm going to have to make a new trip to Goodwill for fall and winter clothes in my size. I can't wait to see what is available.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

50 Things That Make Me Happy

  1. My Husband, gotta list him first, I don't think I could have made it this far without him. He came into my life when a lot of bad stuff was happening to me and just made my life so much better.
  2. My Family. Not so much my bio family. Most of them really through me under the bus when push came to shove. I'm talking about the family I've made with my Husband and the few people we let into out inner circle. The people that make us happy are who we associate with.
  3. My spiritual path makes me happy. I won't follow it if it didn't. Never did make much sense to me to follow a path that puts you down and makes us miserable.
  4. My phone. I know it seems superficial, but I got 50 things to come up with and my phone is a REALLY nice phone. My Husband got it for me after I drug my last phone through 3 years of use and it just really wouldn't go anymore. I use my phone for the social media side of blogging and to keep in touch with the outside world.
  5. My laptop. I try to make money with my laptop... on the side. So, when I'm not blogging I'm using my money making sites to earn a little extra income on the side.
  6. My nieces and nephews. I'm the oldest of 7 children, so I had to wait quite a long time to be an Auntie. I love smothering them with kisses and buying presents when I can. Plus, when I got married, I inherited some extra ones too.
  7. My Kindle. I love to read.
  8. Swimming, my favorite exercise.
  9. Yoga, my second favorite exercise.
  10. Weed, it's not legal in my state yet, but I use it for medical reasons. Honestly the police around here don't even care if they smell it on you. 
  11. Hippie/Crunchy stuff. I like to go organic and healthier options a lot. 
  12. Music. It calms my soul.
  13. Piano. I took 4 years of lessons when I was a teen and I value that portion of my education more than any other education I have.
  14. Video Games, Yeah, I'm a bit of a gamer.
  15. Writing, duh. Haha. I've been a writer since childhood. And blogging is just an extension of that.
  16. A hot shower... these are in no particular order. But, isn't a hot shower to good to the aches and pains at the end of the day.
  17. My Stepson. Fills a void in my life.
  18. Beauty and The Beast... The movie is phenomenal!
  19. Tea, I collect different teas.
  20. Coloring, I'm a child really
  21. Crafts
  22. Beading
  23. Knitting
  24. Embroidery
  25. Counted Cross stitch
  26. Camping, Hubby needs to take me, soon!
  27. Cooking, but not big complicated feasts. Just getting food on the table.
  28. Smoothies. Yum
  29. Cheese Pizza, so it's not good for me... I still love it!
  30. Roses
  31. Presents... oh yes, I'm greedy for gifts!
  32. Marigolds
  33. My marriage. I know I said my Hubby already, but I have to say our marriage makes me pretty happy.
  34. Pinterest... oh how I love Pinterest!
  35. Instagram, love it more than Facebook even!
  36. Photo challenges, whoever invented these is genius! I celebrate every time I finish one.
  37. Shoes, I wear a size 5, so most shoes look amazing on my feet. (boasting a little, sorry!)
  38. Throwing stuff away. I get this from my mom. Something so cleansing about throwing away stuff that just weighs me down.
  39. Halloween! Favorite holiday!
  40. Christmas... second favorite holiday (I like gifts, remember)
  41. My wedding anniversary! It's the day before Halloween
  42. Polyvore, I'm addicted to the app!
  43. Duolingo It's an app that teaches you another language like a video game. I'm learning German. 
  44. Blogging, and not just the posts. I love all the behind the scenes work too.
  45. The Full Moon! 
  46. Taking pictures, I'm not a great photographer or anything, but I do like to take pictures on my phone.
  47. Riding in the car. Okay, I hate driving unless I'm alone in the car and it's in the county. City driving makes me nervous. Thankfully Hubby likes to drive and takes me on tours of our city regularly.
  48. Thrift shopping Oh the finds you can find!
  49. My friend at http://www.arstanley.com writing buddies!
  50. Autumn my favorite time of the year!

Saturday, September 9, 2017

3 Things I Value About Myself

I need to take a moment to think positive and share the stuff I like about myself with you.

1. I'm stubborn, this may not seem like something to value, but the fact is, I have to be stubborn. It's the only way to survive the world as I have lived it. Sometimes it pops up in negative ways too, but for the most part it's a valuable trait for me to have.

2. I'm low maintenance. This is for Hubby's benefit mostly. I mean, I'm organic mostly, so that has a cost to it, but I'm not a make up every day kind of girl, and I'm not afraid to do work... even with all my chronic illnesses. I may hurt forever afterward, but I'll put my back into it when it's time.

3. I am strong. Not in a muscle kind of way. But, when the going get's tough, the tough keep going and I'm one of the tough.

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